What a time in our lives, as though the train is coasting through the last few towns on a cross country run, not quite there but only a few more stops to go. I feel torn and confused about the decisions ahead, in need of guidance and clarity. What is it that I want? And is it the same as what I need ? The pull of a new tomorrow…but is that all that I hope it will be? Right now those notions are in conflict with this fear of loss or is it greed, what does another little bit do for us, do we even need it? And on top of it all there is this sense of time? What would I do anyway, is there anything so urgent that it could not wait until the end? And then the unforeseen, should these circumstances even be considered? So what are the real questions at hand?
what do I plan to do in the first 5 years of my free life?
where do we want to be? What environments will stir my soul to life?
what places exist that must be experienced?
who do I want to be around, anyone?
what will bring me a fulfillment?
when will I have the security to choose and is it ever enough?
all of these questions fill my mind as I think about the path ahead, what is right for me, our family, our future? With whom should I speak to gain the clarity required?
